Is it Friday yet…?

Oh Wednesday how you are such a tease!

Instantly started my day with crappy news plus it is raining, so today is one of those days I would like to curl up in my bed with my pup and sleep all day, but instead I’m at work.

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This is my youngest Pup, he’s my world! Not sure what I would do without him, even though most days I want to strangle him!

ANYWAYS, I wanted to go a little more in depth about my journey to find happiness. The past three years I have been struggling with my weight (working out 5 days a week & not seeing results) and this past March I had finally had enough. I went to see a doctor to get some tests done and come to find out a have a very under active thyroid. Apparently this is very common in my family, my Dad and both sisters have the same problem just not as severe. On a scale from 7 – 35 my level was over 600, nothing to be overly worried about just something that makes your hormones TOTALLY out of wack and crazy and make your body do crazy horrible things. 😦

I have been on medicine since March, different brands and dosages, but still no results yet. My levels are somewhat normal now but inside I still do not feel a difference. Having an under active thyroid can mean many different things: un-able to lose weight, depression, un-fertility, hair loss, brittle nails, and the list goes on!

As i said in my last post, I have so many things in my life to be grateful for, but sometimes I lack the ability to see the good in things. I wake up each day in hopes that I will feel the effects of my medicine and have a wonderful day without having to ‘make’ myself be happy, I just want it to come natural again.

Each week I start with the attitude that I will begin to live a healthy lifestyle and lose weight, but then life happens and I fall off of the train. Money is a big part of my daily stress (not being able to afford a gym membership, not being able to grocery shop on a weekly basis to get fruit, veggies and fresh foods, etc.). I love my job more than anything, but money is super tight right now and I am always worried about how we are going to get our bills paid and still have money to do the things we want to do. And with Christmas sneaking up on us I’m getting more stressed. I LOVE buying presents for other people!!!! Absolutely LOVE it! I love seeing others faces light up when they get to open something they love!

I sort of feel like I am babbling now and don’t want to bore anyone so I think I will stop there for now.

My hopes in writing this blog I can help someone in any way and start to find myself as I tell my story and begin my journey to Happiness!

GREAT DAY EVERYONE!! 🙂 

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Not really sure what I am doing here…

I guess I should start with a little bit about myself…

My name is Jess and I am 25 years young. About 4 months ago I graduated from WVU with a Bachelors in Criminology and a minor in Communication Studies, which took me about 7 years to complete (UGH!). I currently live with my fiancée, we’ve been together for about 5 years, and my two pups (i’m sure you’ll see plenty of pictures soon). I have 4 nephews and 1 niece and they are my entire world, along with a few other kiddos that are very close to me! I work for a small family owned company and I love what I do, even though it has NOTHING to do with my degree I just spent way to much money on!

I decided to start this blog because for the past 2 or so years i have been struggling with a few things, one in particular; how to find true happiness. I love my family and friends more than anything and have so much to be thankful for, but lately I feel there is a dark hole deep inside of me and I am having trouble filling that hole up. I have some fantastic days, but more often I have days that make me just want to curl up in my PJ’s and go to bed.

Anyways, that’s a little about myself and as the days continue I will write more. Not sure if anyone will even read this, but if you do please do not hesitate to comment: tell me if you do or have ever felt the same or know anyone who has. Let me know how you deal. Or even just stop by and say ‘HI’!!